just finish watching K.O Sanguo.
finally, at the first day of this year (:
wanting, I'm much more outdated than you xD
it's such a nice show, and really gamdong ♥
especially episode 29, super gamdong (:
pei fu their 义气, especially 五虎将，脩，阿香，大乔，小乔和曹操 :DD
they can solve any problem together, no matter how hard it is.
that is what we call friendship (:
work together, you fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang ;)

love xiu and ah xiang so so so much♥
they are really a sweet couple (:
脩很体贴，而且还懂乐器，为阿香创作了《天使的距离》这首歌。
阿香则机智聪明，每次在他们遇到困难时替他们解围。
every part that have their existence, it will be a romantic part (:
"当我不在你身边的时候，我会在遥远的地方，弹奏只有你能听的--够爱."

孙权曾对乔玮说过：
“也许，你真的像我父亲说的一样，是月亮，是颗卫星。
总是绕着一颗特定的行星打转。
但那颗行星不是我，是我大哥。
就算我是太阳，这么强烈，这么明亮，
但是对你，我也只能燃烧自己。
让你反射我的光芒，去照耀你眼中那颗唯一的行星。
因为我知道，我不可能改变月亮的轨道。
所以我不会让你知道，我对你的感情。"
"我们就像荡秋千一样，我在前，你在后；当我在后面的时候，你又跑到前面去了。 我们永远只能擦身而过。"

周瑜，小乔，曹操。
一段三角恋情。
最后还是曹操伟大地退出，周瑜和小乔幸福地过着一辈子。
“你无可救药的聪明，却从来都不了解我。”
“我愿做你的召唤兽，陪你闯危险的宇宙。”

after watching zhong ji san guo, in love with few songs.
够爱，泪了，天使的距离♥
nice songs with meaningful lyrics (:
that's all for K.O SanGuo (:

okay, as all of you know, today is the first day of a new year.
01.01.2011.
wish that this new year will be better than 2010.
hope that everyone will get a better life.
wish that everything that are not good in 2010 turn well this year.
hope that, me and you, everyone of you, will be best friends forever♥ wish that not only me will remember those promises.
finally, 2011, SMILES :DD

171210, QGY ♥

Emo shoo shoo, this is a happy post :DD

okay, so today, is a important day.
our Qing Gong Yan (:
woah, after waiting so long. finally :D

went to wanxuan's house at 10.00 am.
the people who attend are wanxuan (of course), yeyun, me, yuyan, chaiayee, changlong, zijun, limwei and xirong.
all of us are there but just missed out JIAYUN!!
jiayun ar, you seriously miss LOTS OF FUN xP

we start the day with a short chat.
someone was abit gek dong during this period xD
after that, went down for lunch (:
went gym for a while too.
for fun :D

about 1pm, went for badminton (:
because there was only one court available,
so 9 of us need to take turns to play.
played for 2 hours there (:
single, double, mixed double and 3 vs 3 xD
and also, practiced some wushu.
yun become jiao lian already,
teach chanlong play broad sword :DD

Later on, went to squash court.
wanxuan actually book from 2-3pm,
but we went there after 3 pm xD
nevermind.
still have fun there (:
first time playing squash,
and zijun taught us some basics (:

bath time :D
then go down park there prepare for our BBQ (:
there was also another group that having bbq today.
so there used the actual place for bbq.
okay, so this is the first time for most of us to set up fire :D
we used up 1 hour to start bbq xP
but still gain an experience to set up fire (:
rain starts to fall again,
so we moved to a place that is covered.
and we were glad that we're not using that actual bbq place.
because it is open air.
and the other group seems that had problem with the rain xP

marshmallows. corn. chicken. sausage. fish. sotong. sweet potato. sweets. ice lemon tea.
the ice lemon tea. super nice ♥ thankiuu auntie (:
but then as usual, i'm being a waiter serving drinks again ._.
bbq starts :DD
at first, we don't really know how to do it.
but slowly got abit skill liao xD
and of course, the 2 experts in 'dealing' chicken-- zijun and limwei (:
really have fun during dinner.
high-gei :DD
喂别人吃的感觉比自己吃还爽-- by zijun xD
yea, so after that we keep feeding each other eat lar (:

and then leh, the great partners-- xirong and chanlong.
get inspiration from the word 鱼圆.
did 4 song for yuyan xD
not bad leh, quite creative de :D
auntie and uncle also praised them leh.
wanxuan's brother also know how to sing liao xD
(let them shuang for a while lar~)
there are some chicken wings left over and we lazy to bbq liao.
so uncle asked the mamak stall de people fried for us (:
to put out the fire, limwei came out with a special method.
use umbrella and filled up with swimming pool de water xD
quite effective also (:

before went back up to wanxuan's house.
we took our group photos beside the swimming pool.
look out for our profile picture.
it will be the same for a month or maybe more xP
by the way, we're taking photos under the rain :D
we don't care about it already xD

after the photo session.
went back up again.
have ice-cream and sparkling juice :D
full dao lar~
re-listen the 4 songs that was edited by chanlong and xirong.
later on, we re-sing the 3 songs we sang on annual dinner (:
chi xin jue dui. eeneie meenie. tong nian ♥
and then went back one by one liao.
me and yun is the last 2 to go back xP

conclusion, have a great great day at wanxuan's house today (:
thanks auntie uncle for the lunch and ice-creams.
and also sorry for the trouble we made at your house xP
171210 ♥
QGY.
SUCESS!!
:D

Since the first day I met you, I know,
it is not easy to get a single trust from you.
no matter how hard I tried,
I still failed to be a person you trust.
or even a person that you will bother.

but, it's really glad to hear that,
you have a person that you really trust.
at least you can tell her what you're thinking.
and I don't need to worry about you.
stuffing everything in your heart.
at least, when you're not happy,
you can have a person to talk to.
that person,
that you trust so much.

sometimes, really,
I don't know why.
I get jealous when both of you are so close.
that let me realize that,
I am just a no one in your heart.
I mean, yea, not even as a friend (:

really,
you should thanks her.
she sacrifice a lot for you.
she is the one that you really can depend on.
although you might be strong.
but deep inside you,
you are actually not.
so, tell her what do you think.
don't buried everything inside you.
she had been helping a lot,
really a lot to make us better.
but, it is really no use if you doesn't care.

at all.

so, I'll let go.
just as you wish :D

why am I so stupid?
I asked this question lots of time.
but, there is no answer.
I wait, wait and wait.
waiting for you to take an action.
although, deep inside my heart.
a voice told me. you won't.
you won't d0 anything, you won't care and that is you.
no matter what you say, it was just for fun, right?
you think that it's ok,
it's ok to to do whatever you want.
to hurt whoever you want to hurt.
you always say that you care.
but when something happened,
what did you do?
sitting there waiting for me to take the next step.
right?

I thought I've already get used to it.
get used to your lies.
but. whenever you say you care.
I did believe.
for that moment.
I'm stupid enough to waste a stupid moment to believe what you say.
everytime.
without fail,
EVERYTIME,
no matter how much hurt you did to me.
I still thought that there's hope.

I bet you're laughing,
when you're looking at this post,
you will be laughing at my stupidness.
nah....
so what?
just continue do what you want.
I'm always the stupid person,
who always take the next step and say sorry to you.
although it's your wrong at first.

from now onwards.
no matter who you are, what you done.
I won't be so stupid again.
I'll take no action till you do so.

thought that I really needed you,
but months past.
time proves that,
you don't care.
at all.
and actually
I don't need you anymore (:
is that a joke?
or a lie?
only you will know :D

wee~ 011210♥
after lots of planning and changing plans, finally, yesterday was the day (:
we had our 6P gathering and ariel's farewell :DD
the day before yesterday, a group of us started doing a autograph book for her.
thanks for yesterday, I had a chance to go in yukchai again (:
we also had our lunch there- Pizza Hut delivery.
we ordered 2 regular pizza, but it seems to be smaller than usual.
so, after eating, we're still hungry xP
but nevermind, we walked to jiawen's grandma house after that.
ate homemade egg tarts. yummy (:
chit-chat alot and then went home about 6pm (:
ohya, we called mingser there and he was having 'fever' xD.

ok, back to the main point (:
reach The Curve at about 10:30am.
busying picking up phone calls and tell them the location we're meeting.
after an hour or more, finally, everyone was there (:
6P-ians who attend up was:
LIYA (:, me, yun, wanxuan, tangling, lishen, xinyue, sheney, chelsea, jiawen, jiaying, xinyi, qingru, crystal, yeohli (Girls)
changrong, quanwey, tiansheng, yunzhen, zhengtheng, renyi, chiachun, chunkhang, cheepoh, qingkai (Boys)
and a special thanks to XIAO LAO SHI who is willing to teman us yesterday (:

movie was cancelled because not enough time.
under xiaolaoshi's leading, the boys went to Kafe Teh Tarik for their breakfast.
and the girls remain at The Street to wait for others and chat (:
after that, the boys went snooker and bowling while girls went to Vivo for lunch.
Pizzas. Baked rice. Spaghetti. French Fries. Cakes. Drinks. ♥

2pm, went to Redbox (:
yunzhen and renyi went for movie, crystal and yeohli went back earlier so they didn't join us T.T
at first we booked a VIP room but they say is too small so we changed to a VVIP room :D
and then, party starts xD
for the first few hours, I was busy dealing with the person-in-charge with the food and drinks.
it's the first time for me so abit kelam-kabut xP
but thanks to the guy who is so patient to me and explained everything that I don't know (:

basically, there are LOTS of food and drinks on the table but no one takes it.
so, I have to be a waitress and serve everyone with food and drinks xD
about 4pm, cake is out, and HAPPY FAREWELL TO LIYA (:
after a while, quanwey, tiansheng and zhengtheng went back.
others were enjoying themselves till 7:30 pm (:
and then for the bill thing,
few of us crack our heads to think about how to settle it (:
at last, those who has student card pay RM13
while others had to pay RM 30.
big difference yea xD
but then, dunno why still lack of money.
need to rugi liao D:

that's all for the day, unfortunately, most of us wore pink shirt or brought pink things.
but we didn't go to Baskin Robbins xP
nah....
nevermind (:

to ariel:
we all will surely going to miss-you-a-lot.
especially me xD
I'll miss you every second and you're always in my heart (:
after going to New Zealand,
don't forget every moment you had with us.
and then, remember to keep-in-touch with us (:
don't ever lost contact.
post some photos in facebook and let us know more about you living in a new place (:
remember to come back and visit us more often.
and and, take care yea (:
New Zealand is a totally different country compared to Malaysia.
so, take care and don't fall sick :D
lastly, I wanna repeat what I've say for lots of times
LIYA, I"LL MISS YOU ALWAYS.
LOVE YOU ♥

26/11-29/11，与琬暄和烨云参加了Sayonara Camp.
琬暄和烨云被分到去同一组-Meet The Tomorrow，
而我叻，就孤单一个人在Future Owners 的组。

跟我同组的有：Justin, Pei Jie, Lydea, Qing Syuen, Chie Yuan和Xu Ming。
Justin可是我在所有参加过的camp内遇到最好最好的leader.
他真的好伟大噢，很多事都是他帮我们扛下来。
而且，他只是13岁而已。
佩服佩服(:

这个camp里面包括了很多有意义的活动，例如：Sayonara race, team building, dharma sharing, first aid talk, jungle trekking等等。
我们还很幸运的有的去参观消防局。
不只能更了解他们的工作，知道一些防范措施，而且还能有一些basic training。
最好玩的就是能从二楼抱着钢管滑下去。
*用一点想象力，想看平时看连续剧的画面，你就知道是什么来的 ;)

还有talent night， 为了这个演出，每一组都认真的筹备了3天。
我们组当然也不落人后啦 (:
我们的主题是-DRUGS,所以演来演去都是那种看到惯的画面咯！
都最后，胜出的组是EVEREADY。
恭喜(:

在两次的Dharma Sharing当中，虽然有少少的闷，不过很有意义。
Peace=Happiness;
Hapiness x= Peace
明白吗？
还有，if you want to achieve peace and happiness, you must learn to forgive and forget (:
原谅所有伤过你或得罪你的人。
因为人非圣贤，孰能无过。
不但如此，还要谢谢他们给你一个成长的机会(:
Everyone will have a moment that your mind is not peaceful,
at the moment,
you may probably do something that you didn't want to.
So do others.

Jungle trekking是我们分成两队进行。
Team 1比较幸运，到一半的时候才开始下雨。
我们这一个team叻，就比较倒霉啦。
上山不久就开始下雨了。
所以路滑，比较危险。
不少人滑倒。
由于情况较危险，山又陡峭，所以下山的时候我们都是拉着绳子下 xP
虽然是很累，而且回到去很多泥了，不过这是个很有趣的经验(:

Friendship Night♥ A meaningful night (:
一开始，是要我们讲对这次camp的看法。
之后叻，为了增进每个团员的感情。
每个人要跟在场的所有人握手或拥抱。
最后，就轮到commities发表感言。
很感人，也触动了大家的心(:

最后一天晚上呢，我们把握时间，跟其他团员要联络方式。
所以，那一晚，是我们最迟睡的一晚 :D
我们三个当然也很把握能一起睡的最后一晚啦! (:

隔天早上，skip liao Puja (:
每个人都很开心 xD
最后，成绩揭晓了。
Meet The Tomorrow得到冠军。 *claps*
而我们这对则拿到亚军。
对我们来说已经是意想不到的成绩了(:
其实Meet The Tomorrow的冠军是意料中事啦。
那组很有团队精神，而且每一次的比赛肯定赢过我们(:
总之，恭喜啦！

就这样，4天3也的生活营圆满结束了(:
下次有机会的话，希望可以再次参加这样有意义的camp :D

yesterday, we went for wushu performance from 2pm till 12 am.
tiring, but fun (:
15 of us, equally fitted in jiao lian's, pn lim's and kah chung's car.
so, me, wanxuan, yeyun and yiqian gave our 'di yi ci' to daddy xD
don't think to much, what i mean is, daddy said he first time fetch so many people in his car.
AND we're sitting his car at our own risk xD
bu still, thanks daddy for his ride (:

when we reach that school, first we went to search for the TOILET.
but, we end up not going coz it's too dirty liao.
and then practice pratice, jiu go for McDonalds :D
next stop-- Giant (:
we whole gang go there kacau ba liao de xD
coz everyone going there just to buy a VCD ._.

ok... here comes the real performance.
First, sorry to all tuan ti cao de performers, sorry sorry.
it will be a perfect performance if i didn't miss the steps.
and and, sorry jiao lian >.<
i know you have high expectation from us, but i ruined it all )':
SORRY to all of you.

next, we went to kanna to yum cha.
this time jiao lian belanja leh.
but hor, all of us are eating the chicken rice provided by the organiser.
just few of us order drinks after knowing is jiao lian belanja de xD

anyway, yeyun, wanxuan, joshua, zixin, keatming, ahpang, yongching, weihan, kahchung, yichen, jiaolian, simkei, and the small lil kid, GREAT JOB! (:
hope that we can perform together next time (:

p/s: one more sweet couple in our wushu team. CONGRATS (:

slept at 2am and the next day wake at 9 am.
not enough sleep :x
and then went to bookfair at 12:30 pm.
with tangling, yeyun and wanxuan (:
yeah, and then 1 stupid went there for an hour to sit at the insurance place there.
met liting, a tarian singa form 3 guy, last year 2C4 de and tzegee (:

THANKS to the chicken rice yesterday.
i think is spoiled or what lar.
3 of us have serious stomach ache today ._.
but we still went for the bookfair xD

most important is I bought deng xiu yin's latest book-- goodbye angel :D :D
and then got her signature (:
later went back at 7:15pm but reach home around 8:30 pm ._.

2010 ♥

whoa... time flies, a year is gone.
ok, this year, an awesome year with 2A5 and prefectional board (:

1st, prefectional board.
many things happened and 40 of us faced it together.
karmen, jiaying and heeyik, 3 of u chose to quit but remember
no matter what, we're always a family (:
visit us often yea.
至少，我们一起度过了充满意义的一年 (:
永远记得，这属于我们的回忆。

hoong, youre really a good bro.
thanks for telling me everything that i should know.
and thanks, for conforting me whenever i'm sad.
thanks for everything (:

ting, always remember our yue ding since 1A4.
i'll always be with you, no matter what (:
don't be emo, emo doesn't suit you.
smile :D

yan, i love your smile.
and your cheerfulness.
you everything (:
so, keep it up .

2A5, a great class which consists of 44 hypers xD

yea, this year, 4 of our AJKs are GIRLS (:
but they did their job pretty well.
give a round of applause to them (:
*claps*

the-ajk-class:
JASMINE LEE--the best KT
from 1A4 till 2A5, she's the best KT in our heart.
yea, she makes the class perfect (:
and thanks for sitting beside me at the beginning of the year ♥
*PJPK wakil :D

CARINGAN-- the blur blur de PKT
sitting beside me during exam.
no need to say liao lar her, expert xD
always say no need read de lar~
*penolong PJPK wakil :D

SHIYING-- the very nice de Bendahari
cute lar you shiying (:
thanks for cheering me up whenever i'm sad (:
love you ♥
* BC wakil :D

JIAEN-- the bertanggungjawab de KK
make sure that everyone do their duties (:
and then, always 'in-charge' of the switches xD

those-who-once-been-my-partner:
JASMINELEE--
as mentioned above, you're really a great person.
enjoy the day sitting beside you helping you do your KT job (:

JOSHUAFIDELIS--
Daddy ♥
thanks for everything you helped me to do this year.
and then very sorry, for annoying you every time we need to write essay xP
i will never forget the fidelis family (:

PATRICKTENG--
thanks for the laughter you gave, for the few months that i sit beside you.
really, thanks (:
* Science wakil :D

KOEYUEH--
although we know each other for not long, but still, i appreciate everything you did (:
and also, you made me addicted to novels {!}
现实和小说是永远相反的, i will always remember that fact.

the-cute-ones:
TUCKCHIEN--
the very cute and small one but always tease people who are taller than him xD
xiaodidi (:

YUANYAO--
sits beside tuckchien for the whole year.
seems very guai guai type and do not talk much, but actually NOT xD

the-gangs:
JUNJIE and WENBIN--
sit right in front but always talk and caught by teachers xD
*junjie, Maths wakil :D

WONGCARMEN, SYNNYI, GLANESSOH and JIAEN--
always have group talks in four (:
* glanes, Sivik wakil :D

LUPHENG and RENYI--
always have topics to talk about.
glue-sticks xD
another pair that sits together for the whole year.

JUNYI and SHALIN--
english pro (:
thanks for everything,
really, i mean it. both of you are great friends.

LITING, WENGKIN, XIAOROU and WEIJIE--
four besties, always chit chat at the corner of the class (:
wengkin, pro in debating.
and also, thanks for your jokes xD
weijie, squash pro (:
liting, sejarah and BM wakil :D
xiaorou, also pro in debating xP

the-prefects-in-class:
JIAYUN--
quite miss the time we sandwich (:
and, it's quite fun looking josh and you 'fighting' xD

JIAHWEI--
the pro in everything (known by everyone )
but sometimes she could be quite emo.
cheer up lar, girl (:

SHIMIN--
whenever she laugh, everyone will follow xD
but thanks lar, at least, can make us be happy (:
*Moral wakil :D

ZIJUN--
always join in girl's talk, but no one minds.
because he is a half girl xD
anyway,bro, thanks for listening to me and sharing about your things to me (:

LIMWEI--
the joker (:
can make me laugh no matter i'm happy or sad (:
thanks limwei, with you beside me, i wont be bored.

HONGLIANG--
the seems to be very very serious one.
but actually he's quite funny, sometimes (:

JOSHUAFIDELIS--
thanks for waiting me almost everytime when it is recess time and class duty.
have fun seeing you act like a girl xD

the-other-awesome-ones-in-class:
YUANQI--
new student in class.
but mixed well with everyone in class very fast.
qi, novel lover ♥

XIAMEEN and JOEONN--
creative club.
pro in drawing comics and many others (:

YIRONG--
dramatic! (:
good in acting for drama or oral.
* BM wakil :D

WANQING--
doesn't talk much.
still remember that time she did an operation an a cow's eye.
brave girl (:

SOFEANNA and SHERYL--
band rocks (:

STEFFIEWONG--
a cheerful girl (:
started to know more about her year end.

YEEQING--
pokerface (:
good at 'killing' xD

GERALDINECHANG--
a nice girl (:
GEGE, don't know whether you mind if i call you that name xP
*Geografi wakil and penolong BC wakil :D

CHUNFAI--
first impression, loud voice xD
and because of that, always been called to read.

MINGYEE--
hmm... never get to know her well.
maybe, if we're still in the same class next year, i'll try harder (:

TZEKIAT--
mr sin's son xD
he's also a quite funny guy at class (:

SAMUELGOH--
blur guy xD
experienced being looked up in class before xP

HONGSHEN--
easy to be catch when he is the killer xD
*English wakil :D

and there, everyone is in this time.
i didn't miss out any, right?
2A5, a great class.
you rocks my year ♥
i would never forgot anyone of you.
you all are always in my heart.
hope that we'll all be in the same class next year (:

你是知道的，对吧？
自从发生过那件事，无论你怎样否认，你都知道我们之间形成了一堵无形的墙。
很厚，很厚。
厚得我无法穿越。
你也不想打破它，对吧？
我知道，无所谓。
我们要如何，才能回到原点呢？
那曾经我们一起快乐过的日子。
很难吧？
或者，近乎不可能。
There's always something between us. always. a thing that will stop us from moving forward. a thing that make us get worse and worse.
我知道，我在你心中，从来没有任何地位，对吧？
你的心永远不曾对我敞开。
明知道，会被伤害。
我为何会笨得一次又一次的走向你？
反正，习惯了。
不是吗？

其实，
原因很简单。
是因为我不能像你一样潇洒。
我不能，
什么都可以无所谓。

after the exam, there are lesser n lesser people going to school.
but still, I never thought of not going to school.
because there's just a few days left.
treasure your time in school, with your friends (:

for thursday, yea, i'm not in a good mood at first.
but thanks to caringan, jasminelee, joshua n jiayun.
you all reali cheer-ed me up (: thanks-a-lot.
then for the whole day, sandwich talk (:
i love it ♥
remember, I receive any brand of mayo (:

friday :D
we started to play 3 different kinds of killer fom the school starts till the school ends (:
basically, we play that every second we're in the class xD
me, joshua, jiayun, hongliang, limwei, shimin, junjie, hongshen, chunfai, sofeanna, steffie, sheryl, yeeqing, xiameen, shiying (:
we enjoyed the day.
blink eyes, holding hands, sleeping.
it's almost the whole class playing because ther's just 26 people in class xD
next monday we'll play again and that time, I hope that everyone play together lar.
more fun (:
the best killer-- yeeqing (a.k.a. the poker face)
the best nurse--limwei ( i lurve this nurse )
the best police-- none xD
the teachers who step in our class are shocked.
pn norliyah ask us whether we're campfire-ing ar?
and we answer:" yea, teacher, do u wanna join us?"
and 1 more teacher more funny, come near us and ask
"apa kamu sedang buat? bukan itu rasuk rasuk thing hor?"
we took a second to think what is she talking about.
and we realized that she's saying about 笔仙 all those.
then we quickly say:" bukan lar cikgu. very safe de."
after that, we try to lower down our volume and not to laugh, coz we're scared that the teacher thought we dirasuk hantu.
we play till the second before prefects leave for duty.
and yea, it's really very FUN (:
and and, I wanna be a nurse, at least once, let me try to be one :)
next monday, waiting (:

that's all for now.
feeling great to have you all as friends, as classmates.
2A5, you're always in my heart ♥

2molo is installation day liao. after 2 months of probates period, finally tomorrow is the day (:
congrats to all those who pass :D ( i know is quite late liao xD)
n then remember what i told u all 2day ar.
When singing lagu pengawas, BERSEMANGAT abit, 2molo is ur big big day liao (:
must sing louder than the seniors 'down' there ar.
cant wait to see u all in whites and with ties.
2day all of u are reali reali cute lar xD
ok lar. so, still the same old word, u all must do well next year ar.
got any problems, please feel free to ask any of the seniors, u know, we wont eat u up de.

ngtzedonn, leewanying, michelle wong, gohchiayin, wongyongzheng, leesherzanne, tankaisheng, alwincahi n leechunghoe, u all brought colour to my prefect life.
at least for the last few months as a afternoon session prefect, i'm not doing my duties alone.
u all are always the best n my dear juniors (:
btw, congrats to 2 of my juniors that had edi married xD

I'm such a failure. in everything. especially friendship.
yea, khorhuiyi, you are. always are.
我是友情的失败者。永远。都是。
被伤了又伤，我是有感情的，好吗？
算了，没人会理会的。对吧?

我和他发生问题时，是谁陪伴着我？
告诉我，把他忘了。
我说做不到。
以前，现在，永远。
我都不可能忘掉在我生命中留下回忆的任何一个人。
包括你。

是谁，在那天晚上许下约定？
只属于我们俩的约定。
现在，一切都没了。
算了，我不在乎了。
From now onwards. no promises. and i won't believe it anymore.

同样的错误犯了又犯，不会累吗？
“我是很痴情的，对于友情。” “学会不要那么痴情” “对不起，我做不到”
我就是这样，伤到麻了，痛了，累了。
这种戏码不断上演。
应该也习惯了吧。
这种事情，有所谓习惯吗？
每次还不都被伤得满是伤痕。

What i can do is just fake a smile.
Yea, it's fake. No more real one.

爱的太真
太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨
明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但我还奋不顾身

♥ Lyrics-Lover♥

Addicted to lyrics nowadays♥
没有任何理由，就是爱上了(:
每句歌词背后，都是有意思的。
至少，它表达出了每个人的心声。
别人常说，听歌是最好的疗伤方法。
但我认为，歌词才是最重要的。
对吧？

最近发觉到，不是你怎样对别人，别人就会怎样对你的。
不知为何，可能是我太天真了吧!总是很容易相信别人，到最后受伤的还不是自己...
太相信你了。以为只要和你分享心事。你也会跟我说下你的心情。
可是，我错了。我连你一点点的信任都得不到。
你还是一样，不肯敞开心胸，把全部事情都藏在心里。
感谢那是你，曾经帮我解决过哪些问题，聆听我的心事。
不过，我很清楚地知道，你不可能把我当知己。
算了，反正你的世界我管不了...

曾经说过，你会永远在我身旁，陪伴着我。
是吗？这一切只是谎言，对吧？
算了，伤痛了，就笑了。
一切还能跟往常一样吗？

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会
笨到 忘不了
赖着 不放掉
我总会把你 戒掉
就让我一个人
寂寞寂寞就好

I'm updating this blog because of STUPID NGTZEDONN :D *shuang liao mar?*
ok... basically, after this holiday, we're going to have exam soon, but I have NO MOOD to study.
So, books thrown away xD
The whole holiday is occupied by wushu n sining practice~
And, last sunday(12/9)-- prefects' annual dinner :DD
prepared a lot for that, juz for that 3 songs-- 痴心绝对, Eenie Meenie, 童年♥
big thankyou to wanxuan, yeyun, xirong, zijun, chanlong, limwei, chiayee, yuyan n jiayun :D *muaks* love u all forever.
I won't forget the time we practice (or so call playing? xD)
Anyway, just love the time we hang out 2gether. sings at bus stop. been chased out by guard xD. LRT. went to wanxuan's hse. sings at TTC. and many many other things that we've done together.
Finally~ We did a great job during AD =) and of coz, all other group perform very well too.
Remember, 1 slot reserved for wongyuyan to 'dou qin' next year.
our qing gong yan!! destination fixed: wanxuan's hse xD date??? looking forward to 'destroy' her hse xDD
hmm... nothing to write bout liao.
things happened around me all sad case, dun wanna say (:
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Specially for my beloved junior, donn♥
ngtzedonn, although u're yonger than me, but sometimes, u seems to be more mature than me (sometimes ONLY).
and, thanks for ur da dao li :D like grandpa like that de....
Donn, don't keep everything inside u, will die very early de xP
Remember what I told u?
No matter what, I'll stand by u, and be ur best listener forever :D
Don't think of stupid things and don't ask stupid questions that will make me feel scared. (really)
And also, don't zat urself zat dao yi wen bu zhi like that.
U're not, u're the best :D

I'll try my best to prove to him, yea, I will.
I'll also try my best to love myself, yea, if I can.
I'll try my best to make everyone around me happy, yea, I definately will.
I'll try my best to not let my dear junior think of stupid stuff xP

Lastly, I-miss-u-so-much-HUANGZITAO :D
kai xin liao mar? be happy ar ._.

I really dunno what happened between us.
What that made us become like this?
Can you please just tell me?
If is my wrong, tell me, and I will correct it.
Please don't hurt me so much, your ignorance is a hurt towards me.
When I received any sms from you, I knew, it will be very hurtful.
But still, I read every single word that you wrote in that sms.
Tears start dropping. But I just can't bother about it.
I did a lot, just to make you forgive me, just to make us be like last time.
But, nothing works.
You're still that mean and I'm still that stupid...
You know, you know that how important you are in my life.
You know it.
But why do you keep on hurting me in all ways?
Just tell me, why?
I know you won't, but I'm still waiting.
Waiting for your answer.
Waiting for our friendship to keep on going.
Waiting for your forgiveness.
Waiting for everything I had to wait.
ily

I miss Tze Donn n Wan Ying♥
Have fun dutying with them, especially ng tze donn=)
At 1st, we have nothing much to talk. (Mostly because he is too pro n knows everything about duty, so we have not much things to talk about.)
But after wanying comes in and under me, donn suddenly become very talkative liao xD
Maybe because he got a partner gua. And then hor, his hobby is to tease me -.-''
Donn ar, remember: be respectful (told u dunno how many times liao lor) and then dun be too perasan xD
Wanying, u did a great job during this 3 days. Keep it up!
Both of u make me know that duty can be so fun :D

Addicted to 2 songs:
♥不过问--郭采洁
你疯了
就疯了
我没有资格过问
为什么
还留着
床头那盏灯
我疯了
就疯了
没有资格不诚恳
你身边的那个人
笑我笨
笑我闷
笑我蠢
不过问

♥来不及--罗忆诗
我来不及将你的手紧紧握着
对你说我只想要我们能快乐
曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么
怎么我微笑着
心却是痛的
我来不及将记忆中的你消除了
我明白错过的从此难以负荷
如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的
那么重新选择
是不是来不及了

是你
让我体会到
在泪水中度过的夜晚
有多难受

为什么
明明是两个好朋友
为什么在一夜之中
狠狠地对我
是我做错了什么吗
还是
我不配
告诉我
好吗
我只想告诉你
无论你怎么对我
你
永远都是我的
好朋友
永远都是

Juz came back from jia yun's hse=)
ok... it's actually a sivik+nie projec, but, the sivik cancel dy, koe yueh cannot go n the stupid joshua ffk. so, it end up juz me, jia yun n jas.
Jy's driver fetch us to her hse. We r talking about how big n how nice is her hse, n then she said:" my hse is not big lor." Ok, fine, we'll see then.
When we reach her hse, omg! I told jas:" If this is call small, then our hse are tiny."
(Start to 'visit' her hse) a swimming pool n a fountain outside; a big black piano when we went in. and then her purple room. a gym room+ study room at 3rd floor. after that we came down with loads of things n her pink laptop=)
While we are waiting for domino pizzas, we start our 'research' 1st.
After that, 3 of us almost finish 2 regular pizzas and 2 boxes of chicken xD and fruits for desserts=)
Then, talk, laugh, listening to songs(justin bieber of coz, jas fav), talking(or u can say shouthing) with josh, eating and................
About 4:30, jy's driver feth us back 2 skul, n that's all=)
But i have to take all the things back n continue doing next monday at skul. Who is free go there teman me lar=)

Sorry for the dead blog for so long >.<

Hmmm... I started to find out 2A5 is a GREAT class!!! (anyone agree? XD) Every time, when i'm sad or depressed, whenever i stepped into 2A5, the feelings gone. I wont, or I cant even be emo in this class, at least when i'm in 2A5, i wont. This is bcoz our class have someone like Sin Tze Kiat, Patrick Teng and Chin Tuck Chien to make us laugh always. It is very fun to have them with us, thanks.

And... '2A5 is UNITY!!' this is what we discovered after the sivik presentation thingy, all of us feel proud to be in this class. We do things together adn make the class be the best of the best=)

As example, the newspaper collection, all of us reali put a lot of effort to reach our target-- 2010. Although we r not the 1st, but at least, we tried. So, Jasmine, cheer up=) We are so worry about u yesterday, stand up and be the always-happy-and-energetic-KT that we know.

But... although i am reali happy in 2A5, i still cant totally put down 1A4. Maybe, maybe i still need time to overcome this.I know is not easy, but i will try.

It's a hard time without wanxuan in class, i cant tell her things whenever i want, the time we meet up is not enough for us.

It's a hard time without kaeshen in class, he is the 1 who will always be my side no matter what. i miss him so much.

It's a hard time without zijian in class, is till remember that time, when he sits with me, although he keep bullying me, but his laughter makes me feel happy always.

It's a hard time without jinghui in class, but i will always walk with her after assembly=)

It's a hard time without all the 1A4-ians in class, sometimes, i reali feel like 2A5 is not enough for me, i want back all the 1A4-ians. I know, i am too greedy.

Thanks to all 1A4 and 2A5- ians, u made my study life be colourful and meaningful.

“今天那么早啊？”
“会吗？那我以后...“我停顿了。
我忘了，已没有以后，
以后，这段路，只有我一个人在走。
谢谢你，曾经陪我走过这段路。

Exam OVER!!!

WOOHOO!!! Exam is over, happy^^
Ok, this is what i do during the long long exam week...

Last Fri: BC, ok ok lar. BI, erhm... dunno what am i writing about. after exam, all of them are like, oh no, that english paper is so easy! and i juz, haiz... die d lor...

Mon: BM(penulisan), ringkasan, ok lar. bahan rangsaan, write till 3rd paragraph liao, suddenly stop and count the words. omg, 130 smth pp liao, bfore exam the teacher told me, carin and some others that CANNOT over 125 pp, if not deduct marks. then i take another paper lor, rewrite and cut words. but in the end still more than 125 pp, suan liao... no time write again liao. the karangan umum more cham ar T.T
spot surat tidak rasmi, c the MELAKA word, and think that: hmm, quite easy.
after i wrote the 'menemui shabatku...' *1 min* *5 min* *10 min* arghh!!! dunno what 2 write. n now, oni know that it is easy 2 write in chinese, and NOT in BM. fine, simply 'ngap' smth in and talk nonsense, this time karangan sure fail liao de lar.

Tue: Science, harder than what i thought, wait die. PM, juz like usual, that hard.

Wed: KH,, so many careless mistakes ar!!! wan go bang wall liao!
English, the words ho, all like from other planet de, oni few i understand oni, again, wait die.

Thurs: Math, ok ok.
BM(pemahaman), c the 1st question, 2nd, 3rd, n the whole of 1st page, feel like screaming, oni 1 i know how to do. it is way more harder than the eng paper leh.

Fri: ok, the time bfore recess is for us 2 revise, but, my class is juz like, a group here, a group there. and suddenly, pn wong appeared, of coz, get scolding...
bt after she walked away, back to normal again.
after recess de 1 hour like that, start exam!!! i was so nervous. ok, this is my result: obj, all tembak; subj, all simply write.
1-2 min bfore we pass up the paper, we can hear loads of screaming from everywhere.
juz a few second bfore we pass up, pn cheam came, and luckily none of us was screaming.
after we pass up, it is surprising that not even one scream, althought loads of them say thay will sure scream after the exam.
class duty, chat with pn sarimah at 2A6 for a while, she said that she finish marking our class de geo, the highest is 57 and lowest is 45 gua. and, next next mon, we will get our result, scared scared leh...
and she say that 2A3 got 1 ppl get 60/60!!! that person sure very geng de...

ok, that's all that i can say, thanks that u still can be so patient n listen to me talking nonsense XD anyway, hoping 2 get my results soon but dun wanna c my bad bad marks T.T

oh ya! Happy Birthday to Brenda and Guan Yu, Hope u all have a great b'day^^
ans oso, happy early birthday to Chiew Theng! Enjoy ya day >.<

丁当

我爱他♥
他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐


如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

你答应过我不会跟他一样，
恭喜你，你做到了，
因为你给我的是比他给的
多100倍的伤害，
多100倍的痛苦，
多100倍的心疼，
多100倍的失望，
多100倍的憎恨你，
多100倍的憎恨自己...

2A5-ians

after about 1 month studying in 2A5, start to get used....( a bit oni)
these r what i think about them:

Patrick: 开心果=) every time he say smth hor, the whole class plus the teacher sure will boom dao de.
Tuck Chien& Yuan Yao: The cute ones>.< Pn Suryati cant differentiate both of them. One day in science lab, she asked:" What is the difference between this(pointing at tuck chien) and this(pointing at yuan yao)?" so cute...
Lup Heng: The art pro. the ppl around him(of coz include me lar XD) always say:" lup heng ar, help me draw this..."
Joe Onn: The one that is same b'day with me. Also an art pro, and eng pro too.
Sha Lin: The 'alarm clock' for me n Joshua.
Joshua: I think he is the most kesian ppl in our class bcoz he sits beside me. Mine eng teacher, bm teacher, as well as bc teacher and lots of other subject teacher. Always bullied by me XD Has a nickname that is specially used by sha lin n jun yi.
Zi Jun& Jasmine: Was very 'mo sheng' at 1st, bt now, quite gud d^^
Lim Wei: The most active student in class. Involved in everything!
Li Ting, Hong Shen, Shi Ying, Jun Jie, Patrick, Me>.<>
All wakils!! (sry if i din write ur name) Need to avoid some of them, coz they will say:" Pay... for..." (hahas, jk)

That's all!
For those 1A4-ians that is in 2A5 that i din write up there, dun worry, u all r always in my heart^^

For other 2A5-ians that i din mention, sry coz i nid more time 2 know u all. Gimme some time!

P/s Still miss 1A4, 1A4 is still the best=)

相隔两个月，终于有时间写blog了。
虽说是两个星期过了，我还是无法习惯一切...我真的是超想念去年的一切，想念那十全十美的1A4....

想念，以前一转头，就能看到琬暄的日子，
现在，转头，只能看到一张张陌生的脸孔；
想念，以前坐在我旁边的锡荣和子键爽朗的笑声，感受那种欢愉的气氛，
现在，虽然是Jasmine,但总觉得，少了些什么；
想念，以前整天支持我的楷森，我一不开心，他就会第一个当我的出气筒，逗我开心，
现在，再也找不到像楷森这样的人了；
想念，以前在班上搞笑的诗敏和国彦，
现在，班上也不能时常听到笑声了；
想念，以前Nicole, 淑玲，俐婷整天骂我、怪我的时候，
现在，没人这样做，有点不惯；
想念，以前静惠和Jasmine“并肩作战”，把1A4管好，
现在，少了她，班上像是缺了什么似的；
想念，以前1A4的一切，
现在，再也感觉不到了。

以上的，你们可能会感觉到我在抄袭者琬暄婉婷，但，那些绝对全是我的真心话。

一切，都已经是过去式了。
今天，我和琬暄回到育才走走。看到了许多以前育才不曾有的东西，我们不断说：“以前...”
最后，琬暄说了一句蛮让我感伤的话：“我们，只能说以前。”
也对，所有事情都会过去、都会改变的，我们要学着去适应...