她说...

addicted to this song --她说--林俊杰♥

他静悄悄的来过，他慢慢带走沉默。只是最后的承诺，还是带不走寂寞。

男人曾經來過，之後他沉默的走了，曾經的承諾，不是永恆，所以還­是寂寞。

我们爱的没有错，只是美丽的独秀，太残忍。她说无所谓，只要能在夜里，翻来覆去的时候有寄托。

兩個相愛的人沒有錯，只是當愛情剩下一個人的時候，成了一種寂寞­的折磨，但是女孩害怕尋覓新的戀情，所以只想在夜裡，有個可以思­念關心的人。

等不到天黑，烟火不会太完美，回忆烧成灰，还是等不到结尾。她曾说的无所谓，我怕一天一天被摧毁。

女孩自我安慰，認為愛情要熬到最後才會美麗，只是當美好的回憶都­回憶完了，殘酷的現實還是沒有進展，沒有動靜。

等不到天黑，不敢凋谢的花蕾，绿野在跟随，放开刺痛的滋味。今后不再怕天明，我想只是害怕清醒。

男人還沒說分手，女孩不敢離開，就像是綠葉再追隨一朵花，苦苦的­追隨，苦苦的崇拜，但最後還是得面對分手刺痛的滋味，而害怕的是­每天睡醒後的清醒，而不是睡醒時分的天明。

the highlighted part is the meaning of this song.
AWESOME :DD
accidentally found that on the web.
perfect meaning (:

just finish watching K.O Sanguo.
finally, at the first day of this year (:
wanting, I'm much more outdated than you xD
it's such a nice show, and really gamdong ♥
especially episode 29, super gamdong (:
pei fu their 义气, especially 五虎将，脩，阿香，大乔，小乔和曹操 :DD
they can solve any problem together, no matter how hard it is.
that is what we call friendship (:
work together, you fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang ;)

love xiu and ah xiang so so so much♥
they are really a sweet couple (:
脩很体贴，而且还懂乐器，为阿香创作了《天使的距离》这首歌。
阿香则机智聪明，每次在他们遇到困难时替他们解围。
every part that have their existence, it will be a romantic part (:
"当我不在你身边的时候，我会在遥远的地方，弹奏只有你能听的--够爱."

孙权曾对乔玮说过：
“也许，你真的像我父亲说的一样，是月亮，是颗卫星。
总是绕着一颗特定的行星打转。
但那颗行星不是我，是我大哥。
就算我是太阳，这么强烈，这么明亮，
但是对你，我也只能燃烧自己。
让你反射我的光芒，去照耀你眼中那颗唯一的行星。
因为我知道，我不可能改变月亮的轨道。
所以我不会让你知道，我对你的感情。"
"我们就像荡秋千一样，我在前，你在后；当我在后面的时候，你又跑到前面去了。 我们永远只能擦身而过。"

周瑜，小乔，曹操。
一段三角恋情。
最后还是曹操伟大地退出，周瑜和小乔幸福地过着一辈子。
“你无可救药的聪明，却从来都不了解我。”
“我愿做你的召唤兽，陪你闯危险的宇宙。”

after watching zhong ji san guo, in love with few songs.
够爱，泪了，天使的距离♥
nice songs with meaningful lyrics (:
that's all for K.O SanGuo (:

okay, as all of you know, today is the first day of a new year.
01.01.2011.
wish that this new year will be better than 2010.
hope that everyone will get a better life.
wish that everything that are not good in 2010 turn well this year.
hope that, me and you, everyone of you, will be best friends forever♥ wish that not only me will remember those promises.
finally, 2011, SMILES :DD

171210, QGY ♥

Emo shoo shoo, this is a happy post :DD

okay, so today, is a important day.
our Qing Gong Yan (:
woah, after waiting so long. finally :D

went to wanxuan's house at 10.00 am.
the people who attend are wanxuan (of course), yeyun, me, yuyan, chaiayee, changlong, zijun, limwei and xirong.
all of us are there but just missed out JIAYUN!!
jiayun ar, you seriously miss LOTS OF FUN xP

we start the day with a short chat.
someone was abit gek dong during this period xD
after that, went down for lunch (:
went gym for a while too.
for fun :D

about 1pm, went for badminton (:
because there was only one court available,
so 9 of us need to take turns to play.
played for 2 hours there (:
single, double, mixed double and 3 vs 3 xD
and also, practiced some wushu.
yun become jiao lian already,
teach chanlong play broad sword :DD

Later on, went to squash court.
wanxuan actually book from 2-3pm,
but we went there after 3 pm xD
nevermind.
still have fun there (:
first time playing squash,
and zijun taught us some basics (:

bath time :D
then go down park there prepare for our BBQ (:
there was also another group that having bbq today.
so there used the actual place for bbq.
okay, so this is the first time for most of us to set up fire :D
we used up 1 hour to start bbq xP
but still gain an experience to set up fire (:
rain starts to fall again,
so we moved to a place that is covered.
and we were glad that we're not using that actual bbq place.
because it is open air.
and the other group seems that had problem with the rain xP

marshmallows. corn. chicken. sausage. fish. sotong. sweet potato. sweets. ice lemon tea.
the ice lemon tea. super nice ♥ thankiuu auntie (:
but then as usual, i'm being a waiter serving drinks again ._.
bbq starts :DD
at first, we don't really know how to do it.
but slowly got abit skill liao xD
and of course, the 2 experts in 'dealing' chicken-- zijun and limwei (:
really have fun during dinner.
high-gei :DD
喂别人吃的感觉比自己吃还爽-- by zijun xD
yea, so after that we keep feeding each other eat lar (:

and then leh, the great partners-- xirong and chanlong.
get inspiration from the word 鱼圆.
did 4 song for yuyan xD
not bad leh, quite creative de :D
auntie and uncle also praised them leh.
wanxuan's brother also know how to sing liao xD
(let them shuang for a while lar~)
there are some chicken wings left over and we lazy to bbq liao.
so uncle asked the mamak stall de people fried for us (:
to put out the fire, limwei came out with a special method.
use umbrella and filled up with swimming pool de water xD
quite effective also (:

before went back up to wanxuan's house.
we took our group photos beside the swimming pool.
look out for our profile picture.
it will be the same for a month or maybe more xP
by the way, we're taking photos under the rain :D
we don't care about it already xD

after the photo session.
went back up again.
have ice-cream and sparkling juice :D
full dao lar~
re-listen the 4 songs that was edited by chanlong and xirong.
later on, we re-sing the 3 songs we sang on annual dinner (:
chi xin jue dui. eeneie meenie. tong nian ♥
and then went back one by one liao.
me and yun is the last 2 to go back xP

conclusion, have a great great day at wanxuan's house today (:
thanks auntie uncle for the lunch and ice-creams.
and also sorry for the trouble we made at your house xP
171210 ♥
QGY.
SUCESS!!
:D

Since the first day I met you, I know,
it is not easy to get a single trust from you.
no matter how hard I tried,
I still failed to be a person you trust.
or even a person that you will bother.

but, it's really glad to hear that,
you have a person that you really trust.
at least you can tell her what you're thinking.
and I don't need to worry about you.
stuffing everything in your heart.
at least, when you're not happy,
you can have a person to talk to.
that person,
that you trust so much.

sometimes, really,
I don't know why.
I get jealous when both of you are so close.
that let me realize that,
I am just a no one in your heart.
I mean, yea, not even as a friend (:

really,
you should thanks her.
she sacrifice a lot for you.
she is the one that you really can depend on.
although you might be strong.
but deep inside you,
you are actually not.
so, tell her what do you think.
don't buried everything inside you.
she had been helping a lot,
really a lot to make us better.
but, it is really no use if you doesn't care.

at all.

so, I'll let go.
just as you wish :D

why am I so stupid?
I asked this question lots of time.
but, there is no answer.
I wait, wait and wait.
waiting for you to take an action.
although, deep inside my heart.
a voice told me. you won't.
you won't d0 anything, you won't care and that is you.
no matter what you say, it was just for fun, right?
you think that it's ok,
it's ok to to do whatever you want.
to hurt whoever you want to hurt.
you always say that you care.
but when something happened,
what did you do?
sitting there waiting for me to take the next step.
right?

I thought I've already get used to it.
get used to your lies.
but. whenever you say you care.
I did believe.
for that moment.
I'm stupid enough to waste a stupid moment to believe what you say.
everytime.
without fail,
EVERYTIME,
no matter how much hurt you did to me.
I still thought that there's hope.

I bet you're laughing,
when you're looking at this post,
you will be laughing at my stupidness.
nah....
so what?
just continue do what you want.
I'm always the stupid person,
who always take the next step and say sorry to you.
although it's your wrong at first.

from now onwards.
no matter who you are, what you done.
I won't be so stupid again.
I'll take no action till you do so.

thought that I really needed you,
but months past.
time proves that,
you don't care.
at all.
and actually
I don't need you anymore (:
is that a joke?
or a lie?
only you will know :D

wee~ 011210♥
after lots of planning and changing plans, finally, yesterday was the day (:
we had our 6P gathering and ariel's farewell :DD
the day before yesterday, a group of us started doing a autograph book for her.
thanks for yesterday, I had a chance to go in yukchai again (:
we also had our lunch there- Pizza Hut delivery.
we ordered 2 regular pizza, but it seems to be smaller than usual.
so, after eating, we're still hungry xP
but nevermind, we walked to jiawen's grandma house after that.
ate homemade egg tarts. yummy (:
chit-chat alot and then went home about 6pm (:
ohya, we called mingser there and he was having 'fever' xD.

ok, back to the main point (:
reach The Curve at about 10:30am.
busying picking up phone calls and tell them the location we're meeting.
after an hour or more, finally, everyone was there (:
6P-ians who attend up was:
LIYA (:, me, yun, wanxuan, tangling, lishen, xinyue, sheney, chelsea, jiawen, jiaying, xinyi, qingru, crystal, yeohli (Girls)
changrong, quanwey, tiansheng, yunzhen, zhengtheng, renyi, chiachun, chunkhang, cheepoh, qingkai (Boys)
and a special thanks to XIAO LAO SHI who is willing to teman us yesterday (:

movie was cancelled because not enough time.
under xiaolaoshi's leading, the boys went to Kafe Teh Tarik for their breakfast.
and the girls remain at The Street to wait for others and chat (:
after that, the boys went snooker and bowling while girls went to Vivo for lunch.
Pizzas. Baked rice. Spaghetti. French Fries. Cakes. Drinks. ♥

2pm, went to Redbox (:
yunzhen and renyi went for movie, crystal and yeohli went back earlier so they didn't join us T.T
at first we booked a VIP room but they say is too small so we changed to a VVIP room :D
and then, party starts xD
for the first few hours, I was busy dealing with the person-in-charge with the food and drinks.
it's the first time for me so abit kelam-kabut xP
but thanks to the guy who is so patient to me and explained everything that I don't know (:

basically, there are LOTS of food and drinks on the table but no one takes it.
so, I have to be a waitress and serve everyone with food and drinks xD
about 4pm, cake is out, and HAPPY FAREWELL TO LIYA (:
after a while, quanwey, tiansheng and zhengtheng went back.
others were enjoying themselves till 7:30 pm (:
and then for the bill thing,
few of us crack our heads to think about how to settle it (:
at last, those who has student card pay RM13
while others had to pay RM 30.
big difference yea xD
but then, dunno why still lack of money.
need to rugi liao D:

that's all for the day, unfortunately, most of us wore pink shirt or brought pink things.
but we didn't go to Baskin Robbins xP
nah....
nevermind (:

to ariel:
we all will surely going to miss-you-a-lot.
especially me xD
I'll miss you every second and you're always in my heart (:
after going to New Zealand,
don't forget every moment you had with us.
and then, remember to keep-in-touch with us (:
don't ever lost contact.
post some photos in facebook and let us know more about you living in a new place (:
remember to come back and visit us more often.
and and, take care yea (:
New Zealand is a totally different country compared to Malaysia.
so, take care and don't fall sick :D
lastly, I wanna repeat what I've say for lots of times
LIYA, I"LL MISS YOU ALWAYS.
LOVE YOU ♥

26/11-29/11，与琬暄和烨云参加了Sayonara Camp.
琬暄和烨云被分到去同一组-Meet The Tomorrow，
而我叻，就孤单一个人在Future Owners 的组。

跟我同组的有：Justin, Pei Jie, Lydea, Qing Syuen, Chie Yuan和Xu Ming。
Justin可是我在所有参加过的camp内遇到最好最好的leader.
他真的好伟大噢，很多事都是他帮我们扛下来。
而且，他只是13岁而已。
佩服佩服(:

这个camp里面包括了很多有意义的活动，例如：Sayonara race, team building, dharma sharing, first aid talk, jungle trekking等等。
我们还很幸运的有的去参观消防局。
不只能更了解他们的工作，知道一些防范措施，而且还能有一些basic training。
最好玩的就是能从二楼抱着钢管滑下去。
*用一点想象力，想看平时看连续剧的画面，你就知道是什么来的 ;)

还有talent night， 为了这个演出，每一组都认真的筹备了3天。
我们组当然也不落人后啦 (:
我们的主题是-DRUGS,所以演来演去都是那种看到惯的画面咯！
都最后，胜出的组是EVEREADY。
恭喜(:

在两次的Dharma Sharing当中，虽然有少少的闷，不过很有意义。
Peace=Happiness;
Hapiness x= Peace
明白吗？
还有，if you want to achieve peace and happiness, you must learn to forgive and forget (:
原谅所有伤过你或得罪你的人。
因为人非圣贤，孰能无过。
不但如此，还要谢谢他们给你一个成长的机会(:
Everyone will have a moment that your mind is not peaceful,
at the moment,
you may probably do something that you didn't want to.
So do others.

Jungle trekking是我们分成两队进行。
Team 1比较幸运，到一半的时候才开始下雨。
我们这一个team叻，就比较倒霉啦。
上山不久就开始下雨了。
所以路滑，比较危险。
不少人滑倒。
由于情况较危险，山又陡峭，所以下山的时候我们都是拉着绳子下 xP
虽然是很累，而且回到去很多泥了，不过这是个很有趣的经验(:

Friendship Night♥ A meaningful night (:
一开始，是要我们讲对这次camp的看法。
之后叻，为了增进每个团员的感情。
每个人要跟在场的所有人握手或拥抱。
最后，就轮到commities发表感言。
很感人，也触动了大家的心(:

最后一天晚上呢，我们把握时间，跟其他团员要联络方式。
所以，那一晚，是我们最迟睡的一晚 :D
我们三个当然也很把握能一起睡的最后一晚啦! (:

隔天早上，skip liao Puja (:
每个人都很开心 xD
最后，成绩揭晓了。
Meet The Tomorrow得到冠军。 *claps*
而我们这对则拿到亚军。
对我们来说已经是意想不到的成绩了(:
其实Meet The Tomorrow的冠军是意料中事啦。
那组很有团队精神，而且每一次的比赛肯定赢过我们(:
总之，恭喜啦！

就这样，4天3也的生活营圆满结束了(:
下次有机会的话，希望可以再次参加这样有意义的camp :D