okayy. I KNOW MY BLOG IS DEAD FOR A LONG TIME :X
but I'm not the only one right?
noticed that lots of people didn't update their blogs recently (:

dunno what to write so just share a song with you guys :DD
--重来--黄小琥♥

你是否爱过
你爱他多过他爱你的人 你还记得吗

你是否爱过
他有种真命天子般的人 你还记得吗

相爱以后终于分手
分手以后又想重来

如果能重来 诚实的去对待
彼此都没疑猜 就没有理由分开

如果能重来 回忆当作尘埃
心不曾被伤害 就能无瑕疵地爱

但是重来却不能保证爱的成功或失败
要重来多少次后才会明白

你是否爱过
让你日夜忘不了的人 你还记得吗

我们曾爱过
不同种类不同面孔的人你记得哪个他

相爱以后终于分手
分手以后又想重来

I'm so in love with this song now♥ ♥ ♥
and ding dang de 一半 (:

okay, as all of you know, exam is coming T___T
but I haven even start to touch the BOOKS...
so, good luck to me and all of you.

JIAYOUS IN EXAM :DD

如果我说我会害怕，
你会开口留我吗 ？

我会把一生的幸福给你，
只要你开心 (:

有时候...

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。
有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。
有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。
有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。

其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。。。
跟朋友装沉默， 跟陌生人讲心里话。
对于在乎你的，不想让他们担心。
有时候，没有消息就是一种好消息。
其实 ，很想说“我很好”。
或许是昧着心说谎，也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。。。
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来…

thanks ting for sharing so meaningful thing with me.
it's true,
sometimes, we just feel it that way.
sometimes, we just cant control ourselves from stop thinking something.
sometimes, we just need someone to be beside us.
sometimes, we just wanna be alone (:

Dunno why but just simply feel like updating about --

JESS LEE JIA WEI ♥

She is just so awesome and sang well for every performance she made.
and, I fall in love of her voice. beautiful voice ♥

because of xing guang, I have 2 new idols :D
NI AN DONG and JESS LEE ♥ ♥
anthony's singing is so touching and sincere (:
jiawei's singing is awesome (:

李佳薇，你是马来西亚的骄傲。
获得星光7总冠军，你实至名归 :DD

Love you forever ♥

There goes the first month of school :x
today is the first day of holiday and seriously, I'm not in the holiday mood yet.
everything is going on like normal saturdays, just wushu, books and computer.
and, I'll bet this is my worse CNY for ever.
1st, I have to prepare a 5 mins long oral, and memorize it by this week._.
after that, present it infront of that so-scary-teacher.
2nd, our group lisan{!} having it right after CNY and we haven't finish discuss )':
3rd, the real CNY holidays are so so short T.T

morning session is really sien, everyday, I will turn to the back and tell yuanqi
:" yuanqi ar, wo hen sien ._."
I really scared that qi will be irritated by me xP

and the most active group is just beside me but I'm still very sien,
because they are not talking to me xD
mingser, dahui, yuanching, wenjean, joeyee and tuckchien.
and and, hen xian mu 2a6 they all de friendship.
I mean, like gor, dahui, joeyee, tiffany, chelsea and jiayun.
the boys will busy write some 'love letter' to the girls xD
someone, please talk to me.

and I need to admit that our class is really unlucky.
3A3 will be singing all sorts of songs everyday LOUDLY but nothing happened.
but us, for the first time we sing birthday song to our beloved KT-- Jasmine Lee,
a teacher appeared and say:" Do you know you shouldn't do this in class? and blah blah blah"
aiks... next time we need to be more careful liao (:
but still,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE LEE

LOVE YOU ALWAYS ♥

CNY is coming,
wish everyone will have a good year in 2011 (:
wish your dreams come true.
and last, not to forget, get lots of angpau and share some with me xDD

Akemashite Omedetou Gozaimasu (:

It had been a month or more, that you 2 have been arguing, for that thing.
okay, i admit, if that thing happened on me.
I will be mad too, seriously.
but after a while, it'll be ok.
so, what make both of you take a long time to let it go?
both of you were good friends last time.
you won't want this thing to ruined you whole friendship right?
you two actually still care about each other,
it's just that you didn't noticed that.
明明还是很在乎对方，却偏偏让中间的距离隔得越来越远。

both of you told me the same thing,
you said you can't forgive what he had done.
you said you cant tolerate with his attitude.
both of you said that you won't continue this friendship again.
but if what both of you said are true,
why do you always think of the other person first?
why do you even bother to care about that person that you said you hate so much?

okay, maybe I don't really understand what both of you are thinking.
yea, I know you two are complaining that I'm very irritating,
and why should I bother about you two.
but yet, I'll continue and try my best to make you to back to normal.
because, both of you helped me a lot last time.

you, and you, will be my best buddies forever ♥
no matter how do you feel,
no matter how many times that you said I'm annoying.
it still won't change (:

so, please, I really don't wanna look at both of you.
suffering to hate each other.
while the heart refused to do so.
follow your heart, do what you thing is right :D

i know, both of you would never enter my blog.
that means, you won't read this post.
but I hope that you two can know what am I thinking.
although I'm really annoying and I know that (:
remember, friendship is something that is priceless.
a good memory can last long.
a true friend will stay beside you forever.

first post after school reopen :D
okay, morning session is not that fun as what I thought.
the only good thing is we have more time after school.
but, morning time pass so fast.
yea, I mean SO FAST.
it's like you didn't even step into Catholic High that day.
and then, the most important is, we can't meet friends in school.
dunno why but just feel like the people I meet everyday is friends in 3A5 and prefects.
that's all.
nahh... ok, don't say about those sad things.
but, just wanna tell all those form 2's this year,
please enjoy your only honeymoon year.
you won't find any year better than that in secondary school (:

so, 3A5, last year's a5 mostly remained and the others are from a6, b4 and b6.
sitting with yuyan (: a great partner ♥
guess who is the KT?
of course, it's JASMINE LEE again :DD
same PKT as last year-- CARIN GAN.
and two 'new ones':
the a-lil-bit-blur-bendahari-- JOE ONN
and the organized KK-- YUAN QI
hope that our class can be cooperative under the guidance from the AJKs (:

and really, days past just like this.
without noticing, it flew away.

I turned back, and saw you.
without any hi or anything.
we just walked pass (:

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I'm falling for you ♥

她说...

addicted to this song --她说--林俊杰♥

他静悄悄的来过，他慢慢带走沉默。只是最后的承诺，还是带不走寂寞。

男人曾經來過，之後他沉默的走了，曾經的承諾，不是永恆，所以還­是寂寞。

我们爱的没有错，只是美丽的独秀，太残忍。她说无所谓，只要能在夜里，翻来覆去的时候有寄托。

兩個相愛的人沒有錯，只是當愛情剩下一個人的時候，成了一種寂寞­的折磨，但是女孩害怕尋覓新的戀情，所以只想在夜裡，有個可以思­念關心的人。

等不到天黑，烟火不会太完美，回忆烧成灰，还是等不到结尾。她曾说的无所谓，我怕一天一天被摧毁。

女孩自我安慰，認為愛情要熬到最後才會美麗，只是當美好的回憶都­回憶完了，殘酷的現實還是沒有進展，沒有動靜。

等不到天黑，不敢凋谢的花蕾，绿野在跟随，放开刺痛的滋味。今后不再怕天明，我想只是害怕清醒。

男人還沒說分手，女孩不敢離開，就像是綠葉再追隨一朵花，苦苦的­追隨，苦苦的崇拜，但最後還是得面對分手刺痛的滋味，而害怕的是­每天睡醒後的清醒，而不是睡醒時分的天明。

the highlighted part is the meaning of this song.
AWESOME :DD
accidentally found that on the web.
perfect meaning (: