Tuesday, November 16, 2010

你是知道的,对吧?
自从发生过那件事,无论你怎样否认,你都知道我们之间形成了一堵无形的墙。
很厚,很厚。
厚得我无法穿越。
你也不想打破它,对吧?
我知道,无所谓。
我们要如何,才能回到原点呢?
那曾经我们一起快乐过的日子。
很难吧?
或者,近乎不可能。
There's always something between us. always. a thing that will stop us from moving forward. a thing that make us get worse and worse.
我知道,我在你心中,从来没有任何地位,对吧?
你的心永远不曾对我敞开。
明知道,会被伤害。
我为何会笨得一次又一次的走向你?
反正,习惯了。
不是吗?
其实,
原因很简单。

是因为我不能像你一样潇洒。

我不能,

什么都可以无所谓。

Saturday, November 13, 2010

after the exam, there are lesser n lesser people going to school.
but still, I never thought of not going to school.
because there's just a few days left.
treasure your time in school, with your friends (:

for thursday, yea, i'm not in a good mood at first.
but thanks to caringan, jasminelee, joshua n jiayun.
you all reali cheer-ed me up (: thanks-a-lot.
then for the whole day, sandwich talk (:
i love it ♥
remember, I receive any brand of mayo (:

friday :D
we started to play 3 different kinds of killer fom the school starts till the school ends (:
basically, we play that every second we're in the class xD
me, joshua, jiayun, hongliang, limwei, shimin, junjie, hongshen, chunfai, sofeanna, steffie, sheryl, yeeqing, xiameen, shiying (:
we enjoyed the day.
blink eyes, holding hands, sleeping.
it's almost the whole class playing because ther's just 26 people in class xD
next monday we'll play again and that time, I hope that everyone play together lar.
more fun (:
the best killer-- yeeqing (a.k.a. the poker face)
the best nurse--limwei ( i lurve this nurse )
the best police-- none xD
the teachers who step in our class are shocked.
pn norliyah ask us whether we're campfire-ing ar?
and we answer:" yea, teacher, do u wanna join us?"
and 1 more teacher more funny, come near us and ask
"apa kamu sedang buat? bukan itu rasuk rasuk thing hor?"
we took a second to think what is she talking about.
and we realized that she's saying about 笔仙 all those.
then we quickly say:" bukan lar cikgu. very safe de."
after that, we try to lower down our volume and not to laugh, coz we're scared that the teacher thought we dirasuk hantu.
we play till the second before prefects leave for duty.
and yea, it's really very FUN (:
and and, I wanna be a nurse, at least once, let me try to be one :)
next monday, waiting (:

that's all for now.
feeling great to have you all as friends, as classmates.
2A5, you're always in my heart ♥

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

2molo is installation day liao. after 2 months of probates period, finally tomorrow is the day (:
congrats to all those who pass :D ( i know is quite late liao xD)
n then remember what i told u all 2day ar.
When singing lagu pengawas, BERSEMANGAT abit, 2molo is ur big big day liao (:
must sing louder than the seniors 'down' there ar.
cant wait to see u all in whites and with ties.
2day all of u are reali reali cute lar xD
ok lar. so, still the same old word, u all must do well next year ar.
got any problems, please feel free to ask any of the seniors, u know, we wont eat u up de.

ngtzedonn, leewanying, michelle wong, gohchiayin, wongyongzheng, leesherzanne, tankaisheng, alwincahi n leechunghoe, u all brought colour to my prefect life.
at least for the last few months as a afternoon session prefect, i'm not doing my duties alone.
u all are always the best n my dear juniors (:
btw, congrats to 2 of my juniors that had edi married xD

Sunday, October 31, 2010

I'm such a failure. in everything. especially friendship.
yea, khorhuiyi, you are. always are.
我是友情的失败者。永远。都是。
被伤了又伤,我是有感情的,好吗?
算了,没人会理会的。对吧?

我和他发生问题时,是谁陪伴着我?
告诉我,把他忘了。
我说做不到。
以前,现在,永远。
我都不可能忘掉在我生命中留下回忆的任何一个人。
包括你。

是谁,在那天晚上许下约定?
只属于我们俩的约定。
现在,一切都没了。
算了,我不在乎了。
From now onwards. no promises. and i won't believe it anymore.

同样的错误犯了又犯,不会累吗?
“我是很痴情的,对于友情。” “学会不要那么痴情” “对不起,我做不到”
我就是这样,伤到麻了,痛了,累了。
这种戏码不断上演。
应该也习惯了吧。
这种事情,有所谓习惯吗?
每次还不都被伤得满是伤痕。

What i can do is just fake a smile.
Yea, it's fake. No more real one.

爱的太真
太容易让自己牺牲

太容易让自己沉沦

太容易不顾一切满是伤痕

我太笨

明知道你是错的人

明知道这不是缘分

但我还奋不顾身

Thursday, October 7, 2010

♥ Lyrics-Lover♥

Addicted to lyrics nowadays♥
没有任何理由,就是爱上了(:
每句歌词背后,都是有意思的。
至少,它表达出了每个人的心声。
别人常说,听歌是最好的疗伤方法。
但我认为,歌词才是最重要的。
对吧?

最近发觉到,不是你怎样对别人,别人就会怎样对你的。
不知为何,可能是我太天真了吧!总是很容易相信别人,到最后受伤的还不是自己...
太相信你了。以为只要和你分享心事。你也会跟我说下你的心情。
可是,我错了。我连你一点点的信任都得不到。
你还是一样,不肯敞开心胸,把全部事情都藏在心里。
感谢那是你,曾经帮我解决过哪些问题,聆听我的心事。
不过,我很清楚地知道,你不可能把我当知己。
算了,反正你的世界我管不了...

曾经说过,你会永远在我身旁,陪伴着我。
是吗?这一切只是谎言,对吧?
算了,伤痛了,就笑了。
一切还能跟往常一样吗?

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑

我就不相信我会

笨到 忘不了

赖着 不放掉

我总会把你 戒掉

就让我一个人

寂寞寂寞就好

Friday, September 17, 2010

I'm updating this blog because of STUPID NGTZEDONN :D *shuang liao mar?*
ok... basically, after this holiday, we're going to have exam soon, but I have NO MOOD to study.
So, books thrown away xD
The whole holiday is occupied by wushu n sining practice~
And, last sunday(12/9)-- prefects' annual dinner :DD
prepared a lot for that, juz for that 3 songs-- 痴心绝对, Eenie Meenie, 童年
♥
big thankyou to wanxuan, yeyun, xirong, zijun, chanlong, limwei, chiayee, yuyan n jiayun :D *muaks* love u all forever.
I won't forget the time we practice (or so call playing? xD)
Anyway, just love the time we hang out 2gether. sings at bus stop. been chased out by guard xD. LRT. went to wanxuan's hse. sings at TTC. and many many other things that we've done together.
Finally~ We did a great job during AD =) and of coz, all other group perform very well too.
Remember, 1 slot reserved for wongyuyan to 'dou qin' next year.
our qing gong yan!! destination fixed: wanxuan's hse xD date??? looking forward to 'destroy' her hse xDD
hmm... nothing to write bout liao.
things happened around me all sad case, dun wanna say (:
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Specially for my beloved junior, donn
♥
ngtzedonn, although u're yonger than me, but sometimes, u seems to be more mature than me (sometimes ONLY).
and, thanks for ur da dao li :D like grandpa like that de....
Donn, don't keep everything inside u, will die very early de xP

Remember what I told u?

No matter what, I'll stand by u, and be ur best listener forever :D

Don't think of stupid things and don't ask stupid questions that will make me feel scared. (really)

And also, don't zat urself zat dao yi wen bu zhi like that.
U're not, u're the best :D
I'll try my best to prove to him, yea, I will.
I'll also try my best to love myself, yea, if I can.
I'll try my best to make everyone around me happy, yea, I definately will.
I'll try my best to not let my dear junior think of stupid stuff xP
Lastly, I-miss-u-so-much-HUANGZITAO :D
kai xin liao mar? be happy ar ._.


Monday, September 6, 2010

I really dunno what happened between us.
What that made us become like this?

Can you please just tell me?
If is my wrong, tell me, and I will correct it.

Please don't hurt me so much, your ignorance is a hurt towards me.

When I received any sms from you, I knew, it will be very hurtful.

But still, I read every single word that you wrote in that sms.
Tears start dropping. But I just can't bother about it.
I did a lot, just to make you forgive me, just to make us be like last time.

But, nothing works.

You're still that mean and I'm still that stupid...

You know, you know that how important you are in my life.

You know it.
But why do you keep on hurting me in all ways?

Just tell me, why?

I know you won't, but I'm still waiting.

Waiting for your answer.

Waiting for our friendship to keep on going.

Waiting for your forgiveness.

Waiting for everything I had to wait.

ily