I'm such a failure. in everything. especially friendship.
yea, khorhuiyi, you are. always are.
我是友情的失败者。永远。都是。
被伤了又伤，我是有感情的，好吗？
算了，没人会理会的。对吧?

我和他发生问题时，是谁陪伴着我？
告诉我，把他忘了。
我说做不到。
以前，现在，永远。
我都不可能忘掉在我生命中留下回忆的任何一个人。
包括你。

是谁，在那天晚上许下约定？
只属于我们俩的约定。
现在，一切都没了。
算了，我不在乎了。
From now onwards. no promises. and i won't believe it anymore.

同样的错误犯了又犯，不会累吗？
“我是很痴情的，对于友情。” “学会不要那么痴情” “对不起，我做不到”
我就是这样，伤到麻了，痛了，累了。
这种戏码不断上演。
应该也习惯了吧。
这种事情，有所谓习惯吗？
每次还不都被伤得满是伤痕。

What i can do is just fake a smile.
Yea, it's fake. No more real one.

爱的太真
太容易让自己牺牲
太容易让自己沉沦
太容易不顾一切满是伤痕
我太笨
明知道你是错的人
明知道这不是缘分
但我还奋不顾身

♥ Lyrics-Lover♥

Addicted to lyrics nowadays♥
没有任何理由，就是爱上了(:
每句歌词背后，都是有意思的。
至少，它表达出了每个人的心声。
别人常说，听歌是最好的疗伤方法。
但我认为，歌词才是最重要的。
对吧？

最近发觉到，不是你怎样对别人，别人就会怎样对你的。
不知为何，可能是我太天真了吧!总是很容易相信别人，到最后受伤的还不是自己...
太相信你了。以为只要和你分享心事。你也会跟我说下你的心情。
可是，我错了。我连你一点点的信任都得不到。
你还是一样，不肯敞开心胸，把全部事情都藏在心里。
感谢那是你，曾经帮我解决过哪些问题，聆听我的心事。
不过，我很清楚地知道，你不可能把我当知己。
算了，反正你的世界我管不了...

曾经说过，你会永远在我身旁，陪伴着我。
是吗？这一切只是谎言，对吧？
算了，伤痛了，就笑了。
一切还能跟往常一样吗？

我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会
笨到 忘不了
赖着 不放掉
我总会把你 戒掉
就让我一个人
寂寞寂寞就好

I'm updating this blog because of STUPID NGTZEDONN :D *shuang liao mar?*
ok... basically, after this holiday, we're going to have exam soon, but I have NO MOOD to study.
So, books thrown away xD
The whole holiday is occupied by wushu n sining practice~
And, last sunday(12/9)-- prefects' annual dinner :DD
prepared a lot for that, juz for that 3 songs-- 痴心绝对, Eenie Meenie, 童年♥
big thankyou to wanxuan, yeyun, xirong, zijun, chanlong, limwei, chiayee, yuyan n jiayun :D *muaks* love u all forever.
I won't forget the time we practice (or so call playing? xD)
Anyway, just love the time we hang out 2gether. sings at bus stop. been chased out by guard xD. LRT. went to wanxuan's hse. sings at TTC. and many many other things that we've done together.
Finally~ We did a great job during AD =) and of coz, all other group perform very well too.
Remember, 1 slot reserved for wongyuyan to 'dou qin' next year.
our qing gong yan!! destination fixed: wanxuan's hse xD date??? looking forward to 'destroy' her hse xDD
hmm... nothing to write bout liao.
things happened around me all sad case, dun wanna say (:
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Specially for my beloved junior, donn♥
ngtzedonn, although u're yonger than me, but sometimes, u seems to be more mature than me (sometimes ONLY).
and, thanks for ur da dao li :D like grandpa like that de....
Donn, don't keep everything inside u, will die very early de xP
Remember what I told u?
No matter what, I'll stand by u, and be ur best listener forever :D
Don't think of stupid things and don't ask stupid questions that will make me feel scared. (really)
And also, don't zat urself zat dao yi wen bu zhi like that.
U're not, u're the best :D

I'll try my best to prove to him, yea, I will.
I'll also try my best to love myself, yea, if I can.
I'll try my best to make everyone around me happy, yea, I definately will.
I'll try my best to not let my dear junior think of stupid stuff xP

Lastly, I-miss-u-so-much-HUANGZITAO :D
kai xin liao mar? be happy ar ._.

I really dunno what happened between us.
What that made us become like this?
Can you please just tell me?
If is my wrong, tell me, and I will correct it.
Please don't hurt me so much, your ignorance is a hurt towards me.
When I received any sms from you, I knew, it will be very hurtful.
But still, I read every single word that you wrote in that sms.
Tears start dropping. But I just can't bother about it.
I did a lot, just to make you forgive me, just to make us be like last time.
But, nothing works.
You're still that mean and I'm still that stupid...
You know, you know that how important you are in my life.
You know it.
But why do you keep on hurting me in all ways?
Just tell me, why?
I know you won't, but I'm still waiting.
Waiting for your answer.
Waiting for our friendship to keep on going.
Waiting for your forgiveness.
Waiting for everything I had to wait.
ily

I miss Tze Donn n Wan Ying♥
Have fun dutying with them, especially ng tze donn=)
At 1st, we have nothing much to talk. (Mostly because he is too pro n knows everything about duty, so we have not much things to talk about.)
But after wanying comes in and under me, donn suddenly become very talkative liao xD
Maybe because he got a partner gua. And then hor, his hobby is to tease me -.-''
Donn ar, remember: be respectful (told u dunno how many times liao lor) and then dun be too perasan xD
Wanying, u did a great job during this 3 days. Keep it up!
Both of u make me know that duty can be so fun :D

Addicted to 2 songs:
♥不过问--郭采洁
你疯了
就疯了
我没有资格过问
为什么
还留着
床头那盏灯
我疯了
就疯了
没有资格不诚恳
你身边的那个人
笑我笨
笑我闷
笑我蠢
不过问

♥来不及--罗忆诗
我来不及将你的手紧紧握着
对你说我只想要我们能快乐
曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么
怎么我微笑着
心却是痛的
我来不及将记忆中的你消除了
我明白错过的从此难以负荷
如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的
那么重新选择
是不是来不及了

是你
让我体会到
在泪水中度过的夜晚
有多难受

为什么
明明是两个好朋友
为什么在一夜之中
狠狠地对我
是我做错了什么吗
还是
我不配
告诉我
好吗
我只想告诉你
无论你怎么对我
你
永远都是我的
好朋友
永远都是

Juz came back from jia yun's hse=)
ok... it's actually a sivik+nie projec, but, the sivik cancel dy, koe yueh cannot go n the stupid joshua ffk. so, it end up juz me, jia yun n jas.
Jy's driver fetch us to her hse. We r talking about how big n how nice is her hse, n then she said:" my hse is not big lor." Ok, fine, we'll see then.
When we reach her hse, omg! I told jas:" If this is call small, then our hse are tiny."
(Start to 'visit' her hse) a swimming pool n a fountain outside; a big black piano when we went in. and then her purple room. a gym room+ study room at 3rd floor. after that we came down with loads of things n her pink laptop=)
While we are waiting for domino pizzas, we start our 'research' 1st.
After that, 3 of us almost finish 2 regular pizzas and 2 boxes of chicken xD and fruits for desserts=)
Then, talk, laugh, listening to songs(justin bieber of coz, jas fav), talking(or u can say shouthing) with josh, eating and................
About 4:30, jy's driver feth us back 2 skul, n that's all=)
But i have to take all the things back n continue doing next monday at skul. Who is free go there teman me lar=)

Sorry for the dead blog for so long >.<

Hmmm... I started to find out 2A5 is a GREAT class!!! (anyone agree? XD) Every time, when i'm sad or depressed, whenever i stepped into 2A5, the feelings gone. I wont, or I cant even be emo in this class, at least when i'm in 2A5, i wont. This is bcoz our class have someone like Sin Tze Kiat, Patrick Teng and Chin Tuck Chien to make us laugh always. It is very fun to have them with us, thanks.

And... '2A5 is UNITY!!' this is what we discovered after the sivik presentation thingy, all of us feel proud to be in this class. We do things together adn make the class be the best of the best=)

As example, the newspaper collection, all of us reali put a lot of effort to reach our target-- 2010. Although we r not the 1st, but at least, we tried. So, Jasmine, cheer up=) We are so worry about u yesterday, stand up and be the always-happy-and-energetic-KT that we know.

But... although i am reali happy in 2A5, i still cant totally put down 1A4. Maybe, maybe i still need time to overcome this.I know is not easy, but i will try.

It's a hard time without wanxuan in class, i cant tell her things whenever i want, the time we meet up is not enough for us.

It's a hard time without kaeshen in class, he is the 1 who will always be my side no matter what. i miss him so much.

It's a hard time without zijian in class, is till remember that time, when he sits with me, although he keep bullying me, but his laughter makes me feel happy always.

It's a hard time without jinghui in class, but i will always walk with her after assembly=)

It's a hard time without all the 1A4-ians in class, sometimes, i reali feel like 2A5 is not enough for me, i want back all the 1A4-ians. I know, i am too greedy.

Thanks to all 1A4 and 2A5- ians, u made my study life be colourful and meaningful.

“今天那么早啊？”
“会吗？那我以后...“我停顿了。
我忘了，已没有以后，
以后，这段路，只有我一个人在走。
谢谢你，曾经陪我走过这段路。